Sunday, October 23, 2011


National Seashore (USA) on Cape Cod
Photo taken October 1, 2011
Photo credit: Sandra Hammel

I am making affirmations be a part of my day, every day.

I started when I had been given a diagnosis that the medical profession doesn't appear to have any real remedy for. After seeing several doctors, googling, going to a support group for this specific diagnosis, finding meditation society, I found Louise Hay's affirmation book You Can Heal Your Life a great portal to my own exploration with affirmations.

Centrally Louise, maintains that we love and accept ourselves just as we are. And the statements and thoughts are to be in the present, not in the future. The reason for this is that if you state that it will happen in the future, you are setting it up to happen in the future, and the future never becomes the present. So, state it as it is already happening.

I have had some powerful experiences during my times of meditating on the affirmations. My times of doing this are very personal and they sometimes lead into thoughts that just blossom out of other thoughts. They may not strike a chord with you, but I offer some of what I have written down in my journal following some of my times. I never remember exactly what has come to me, but close.

Affirmation results from the last several days ~

My body is restored to its natural state of good health and positive energy field. Everything else will follow.

Love enters me, moves through me and radiates out from me.

I have created a safe space

to be myself free of judgment.

I have created a safe space

to use my talents,

to use my talents out loud.

I have created a safe space where I can feel vulnerable,
where I can let the guard down,
where I can be gentle, I can be kind
and not fear being attacked.

(Yes, I know it is supposed to be only positively worded, such as "free of attack" instead of "not fear being attacked".)

I have created a safe space to be whole, calm.
I am protected here.

I can love myself here, the ways I had been wanting you to love me.

I have created a safe space to be everything that I am, feel, am drawn toward and dream of.

I have created a safe space.

I can relax.

I breathe now.

I can let my breath go now.

I have created a safe space where I don't hold my breath.

I am okay here.

I don't judge myself.

I let go of my need for you to love me.

I let go of my need for you to stop judging me.

I create a safe space for me to be me.

I am grateful for this.

My voice is in a safe space now.

I am healed.


Imagine the baby you were,
the little girl
who was afraid of those who were supposed to love, encourage and protect you.
You can give her everything needed to be you.

This is the beauty of your power.

I love myself.

I am accepted in the safe space I have created.

I adore who I am.

I am grateful.

I attract people who support me.

I create a safe space where there is no resistance to my being me completely.


The pain that came and did its service to me is let go into the Universe and becomes positive light and energy.


I release the toxic statements to the Universe to dissipate into positive energy.

I let go the toxic experiences that I hold, have been holding over time.

All the judgment that I have been holding in my body is given to the Universe.

I have created a safe space
to be me
to be vulnerable
to be gentle
to be kind.


I deserve to be happy and calm.

I deserve to be whole.

I accept acceptance
I accept abundance
I accept love
I accept gentleness
I accept kindness
I accept all good
I accept wholeness
I accept healing
I accept life
I accept gratitude
I accept all the things that I once feared losing,
not having or keeping - are now mine
I accept that I am awesome
I accept joy
I accept forgiveness
I accept power
I accept prosperity

I am love
I am gentleness
I am kindness
I am goodness
I am healed
I am life
I am gratitude
I am all things I once feared losing,
not having or keeping.

I live love
I live gentleness
I live kindness
I live goodness
I live whole
I live healed
I live life
I live gratitude
I live free of fear
I live


"Uncomfortable" had become my familiar place to be. Now I want to take "it" off, like a heavy coat that I 've been wearing.

Why is is so hard to be a place so soft?
Not leaving,
stepping back into the familiar?

I have created a safe space
where I am whole
I can be child-like
I can be vulnerable
I am free of restricting thoughts and language.
It is gentle,

I am free of what you think, say, judge.

It is comfortable to be only me, as I am.

I am healed.

I only want to live in this space.

I don't want to step out of this space to manifest anything.
It is here I want to always be from this moment on.

I want to live only in this space.
It's where I always have been moving toward.

It's where I can finally be home and breathe free.

I am grateful to be here.

I'm me in this space and that is all.


I am peace
I am calm
I am love
I am the holder for acceptance
I am kindness
I am awesome
I am whole in my save space
I am just as I am perfect
I am gentleness
I am vulnerability
I am protected here
I am grace
I let go of my need for you to approve of me.
I love me
I can be myself here outloud.

I welcome you in my safe space.


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Tuesday, October 18, 2011




As a community leader in Rhode Island, who works with other community leaders across the USA, in order to bring needed attention to genocide, preventing and stopping it, I have worked specifically with the dire situation in Sudan.

Ethnic cleansing, genocide of about 3,000,000 bodies in South Sudan, Darfur, Nuba Mountains, Blue Nile, Eastern Sudan just since Bashir came into power is proof of the world, including the USA, turning a blind eye and making "never again" meaningless two words. Two words that we have used at the end of previous genocides. The current Government of Sudan supports Sudanese regional genocides/ethnic cleansings, which are focused on people who are black, have an African culture and those who've asked for government help. The victim targets' regions over the months and years have changed and multiplied in Sudan, however the strategy has not changed.


One who worked in Sudan in a refugee camp (2005 to 2007), from 13:25 to 21:19.

John Prendergast of the Enough Project is introduced at 21:19 and speaks at 22:44 until 33:49.

Mohamed Yahya speaks at United Nations on the UN Webcast, Mohamed is from west Darfur, Sudan. His introduction and his comments are from 33:49 to 48:40.

51:48 begins the section of various contributions of "What You Wish For" book.

At 53:27 is a German author introduction via streaming by Skype at the United Nations Dag Hammarskjöld Library Auditorium , followed by the introduction of each of the authors to speak.

At 1:00:13 the first author is supposed to be heard, but the audio is not audible for a while anyway.

Here is the explanation of the video above from the United Nations webcast ~

What You Wish For, a short story and poetry anthology for youth.


"They Bombed Everything that Moved"

Aerial military attacks on civilians and humanitarians in Sudan,

1999 - 2011

(report and data update as of October 15, 2011)

By Eric Reeves


July 15 - October 15, 2011

Since this report and data spreadsheet were originally released on May 6, 2011, the Sudan Armed Forces---at the direction of the National Islamic Front/National Congress Party regime in Khartoum---have continued their aerial onslaught against civilians in various regions of North Sudan. This savagery has now spread from South Kordofan to another northern border state, Blue Nile. At the same time, civilian villages in Darfur, without any military presence, continue to be targeted. I have argued that in aggregate, these many hundreds of confirmed, deliberate aerial attacks on civilians and humanitarians---going back more than a decade---constitute crimes against humanity. So, too, does the widespread, systematic denial of humanitarian access on an ethnic basis, something the UN first reported in Darfur in 2003 (in South Sudan the Nuba Mountains this had begun over a decade earlier). And yet these tactics, which have defined the military strategy of the Khartoum regime for so long, show no signs of being curtailed. Nor is there any sign that these atrocity crimes will confront meaningful action by international actors, who know full well their deadly consequences---and hence the consequences of their own acquiescence.

In South Kordofan the bombing continues to be particularly intense in the Nuba Mountains, and for months has prevented planting and tending of crops; continued bombing now endangers even a meager harvest. Khartoum has prevented all international humanitarian access to a vast population that is now squarely facing starvation. Many people have made the dangerous trek to South Sudan, some 8,000 as of mid-September, and the UN High Commission for Refugees estimated at the time that there were some 500 new arrivals per day.

Civilians in Blue Nile---another region with a long history of marginalization, violence, and tyranny at the hands of the NIF/NCP regime---are consistently reported as enduring daily bombing attacks. Civilian casualties have been high and the number of civilians displaced by bombardment is enormous. Elected governor Malik Agar estimates that half of Blue Nile's 1.2 million people are now on the move. This is harvest season and it appears increasingly unlikely that those forced from their lands by aerial military violence will be able to survive without international humanitarian aid---which Khartoum has again denied categorically.

Lacking food and humanitarian assistance, and facing increasing violence, civilians from Blue Nile have begun to pour into neighboring Ethiopia, with no end to the exodus in sight:

"The UN Refugee Agency (UNHCR) says 27,500 people have fled the conflict in Blue Nile State to nearby Ethiopia since early September. The agency is due to open a second camp 200km from the border with a capacity of 3,000 people, as fighting and SAF aerial bombardments continue." (UN Integrated Regional Information Networks [IRIN] [dateline: Kurmuk], October 13, 2011)

In South Kordofan, the SPLA/M-North leader Abdel Aziz el-Hilu reports that as many as 500,000 Nuba have been displaced, and he has assembled locality data to support this claim. The actual figure for displaced persons can't be known, but now---after more than four months of intense bombings---it is almost certainly more than 300,000, and the number of conflict-affected civilians much greater. Khartoum's military assaults on Abyei (May 20), South Kordofan (June 5), and Blue Nile (September 1) may now have displaced 1 million civilians.

Origins and character of conflict in Blue Nile

Violence in Blue Nile was initiated by Khartoum's Sudan Armed Forces (SAF) on September 1, 2011 in yet another well-prepared assault. Such an assault was predicted in a previous iteration of this update (July 15, 2011), as it was by the elected governor of Blue Nile, Malik Agar. Malik insisted to all who would listen that the longer conflict and ethnic targeting of civilians continued in South Kordofan, the more likely it was that Blue Nile would be drawn into the fighting. Unsurprisingly, Malik's residence in Damazine was the first target of SAF shelling. Such shelling has now extended southward toward Kurmuk as Khartoum increasingly engages in "stand-off" military actions against the forces so effectively led by Malik (the Sudan People's Liberation Army/Movement-North; SPLA/M-N). Large-scale, long-range, and indiscriminate shelling has many of the same effects as aerial bombardment by Antonov aircraft, which are inherently incapable of achieving bombing accuracy sufficient to be militarily effective. It is now the greatest fear of many on the ground in Blue Nile. UN IRIN reports from Kurmuk (October 12, 2011):

"The priority is to move patients from the hospital as quickly as possible, either back home or across the border to Ethiopia where other aid agencies can care for them. 'The fear that an Antonov might bomb [the hospital] is terrible,' [Dr. Evan] Atar said, adding: 'Most of the people who were injured are people who were running. The bomb usually explodes upwards in a conical form, so if you keep down you are fine.'"

But fear in such circumstances can be extremely difficult to control; and the fact that Khartoum is notorious for its deliberate bombing of hospitals is widely known among the people who endured more than 20 years of civil war (see original May 6 report, pp. 14 - 15, 23 - 24). Moreover, as Dr. Atar also notes:

"'In the [civil] war, there was peace in the villages; now they [the Antonovs] bomb even the villages---that's the problem; and the increasing accuracy of the bombing is leading to rising patient numbers as the weeks go by.'" (UN IRIN [dateline: Kurmuk], October 12, 2011)

While still not sufficiently accurate to be militarily effective, there have been repeated reports of Antonovs increasing their accuracy through crude bomb-sighting mechanisms, and their destructiveness by using bombs with greater explosive power.

Atar, who is the only doctor in Kurmuk, notes the connection between bombing and shelling by Khartoum's SAF and the looming food shortages: "Food would also become a problem [ ]. 'First of all the war will continue and the second thing is, now, hunger will come and it is not going to spare anyone unless the people go and become refugees to be helped, but for the people left within, it is going to be a big problem.' Artillery fire directed at rebels could be the last straw. 'For now it is the Antonov bombing, but I don't think I would be here if there is shelling ... and no patients could be brought here,' Atar said" (emphasis added) (UN IRIN October 12). And even now, a major SAF force is on the move toward Kurmuk. A highly alarming report from the Satellite Sentinel Project (September 23), based on substantial satellite photography, indicates a massive formation of armor, troops, and military aircraft: "heavily camouflaged, mechanized units comprising at least a brigade---3,000 troops or more"; "these forces appear to be equipped with heavy armor and artillery, supported by helicopter gunships." Once they are in artillery range, they will likely engage in annihilating shelling, which will compel the SPLA/N to withdraw or risk large numbers of casualties among civilians who have remained (a rapidly dwindling number).

The experience of civilians who are bombed and shelled is captured in an important dispatch from Agence France-Presse (also with a Kurmuk dateline, October 10):

"Anima's eyes flicker and weep as the doctor sews up the stump of his left arm, before he rolls back on the hospital bed, one of the latest victims in Sudan's relentless bombing campaign in Blue Nile state. Dr Evan Atar says he has done seven amputations since war broke out between the Sudanese Armed Forces (SAF) and fighters loyal to the SPLM-North in Blue Nile state last month. He has treated more than 600 others for shrapnel wounds. 'We are really now running out of supplies. We have been running here and there and crying.... But now where to get it from is really an issue,' he said. President Omar al-Bashir has blocked foreign aid agencies from entering Blue Nile and nearby South Kordofan state, where a separate conflict between the army and SPLM-North rebels has raged since June."

"Kurmuk's is the only hospital between neighbouring Ethiopia and Damazin ... and Dr Atar is the only doctor. He says the hospital will run out of vital supplies such as saline solution, cotton and gauze this week if no aid arrives, after using up six months' supplies in one [month]. In another hospital bed, 65-year-old Altom Osman is recovering from a deep shrapnel wound in his back and one in his arm after a bomb hit the village of Sali an hour north of Kurmuk. 'I was taking some sorghum flour to my wife. We were passing our farm and then the Antonov came immediately and bombed,' Osman whispered."



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