I LOVE WHERE I LIVE - ROUGH CUT
I went to an audition tonight and I am making an attempt to re-enter life to feel normalized after an emotionally-charged event - an audition. We sat there and watched and listened to everyone audition. It was posted on their website to start at 6:30 p.m., but it was well under way when I arrived at 6:15 p.m. After being there for five minutes, I felt like leaving. I am no good at singing in public, but I have been trying to put myself out there.
I had recorded my own accompaniment and took a cd player to use, if they allowed it. But I was told "no, we want to hear you sing with a live pianist", although another auditioner sang without any accompaniment.
We were to sing one upbeat song and one ballad - only 16 measures of each.
My first song was good considering I didn't lose control of being relaxed, as is my typical behavior. That didn't happen until the second song. I suppose part of that was me, but part of that was the accompanist. He was good, but he didn't know how to "blues" up the music for Bring It On Home to Me - a Sam Cooke song. And I am used to the accompaniment that way. At first I thought he was playing it too fast, but I tried to slow him down and it still wasn't working. It was more the style he was playing. Too many notes, too fancy for a simple bluesy song. It overpowered the spirit of the song and I couldn't "feel" the music as I do when I sing and accompany myself. There is soul in the music and he was putting no soul in the way he play the keyboard. You get used to things that allow you to feel the music, meaning I can get lost in the music and not be so conscious of those watching me. And that is when my breathing gets nervous - when I start thinking of all eyes on me. And once that happens it is hard to reign in the nerves and sing relaxed. So the notes start to shake. I can't hold out anything longer than long enough to sing the syllable, because sustaining the note makes the shaking voice so evident.
Surprisingly the applause was long enough to keep going until I got to the back of the room where I had been seated. And one of auditioners, turned around and gave me a thumbs up and an affirmative "that was good". But it wasn't good. Because I do it so much better at home. With soul. Relaxed. Not tensing up the throat. So, tight sounds were coming out.
I asked one of the three "judges" at break time, if there would be more auditions later and she said yes. I said, I wanted to try again because I hadn't done too well. And her body language seemed to say otherwise. We'll see. But, the second song really didn't make me feel successful.
But I tried.
And that is good.
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This work is a work in progress and is in rough cut form at this time, so I ask you to honor my request not embed, link anywhere or download it, until I get the final cut done. I am reserving these things for myself. My Apple computer is in the repair shop at the moment, so I can’t work on it. But I want to share what I have so far with all who also love this beautiful part of Planet Earth.
I’ll see how this “honor system” request works.
This video is to show my love for where I live. Most of the video clips and photographs were shot in
I have no credits on the video itself at this time.
Al Green ~ ”Here I Am”
Odetta ~ “Hear Me Talking to You” from the CD Blues Everywhere I Go
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Videogaphy and photography ~ Sandra Hammel
The opening song is extracted from video that I took at the Newport Jazz Festival, August 12, 2007. It is Al Green singing “Here I Am” as clips of him singing at the 2007 festival are edited in. The view after showing Al sing is the view the artists see from the main stage at
Included in the tribute video:
showing the shoreline of
Island Moving Company on
Black Ships Festival Taiko Drumming –
Sachuest Wildlife Refuge
One of the
See link below
Cliff Walk and views from it
The International Tennis Hall of Fame grounds
Ida Lewis Yacht Club
My beloved sunset and cloud photos
My son when he was 11 years old
Ducks at Brenton Cove
Church at corner of Spring Street and
Newport's tourist website
Labels: Aquidneck Island, Black Ships, ilvovemylife, Island Moving Company, Jamestown, Middletown, Narragansett Bay, Newport, Newport Jazz Festival, Portsmouth, Rhode Island, Sandra Hammel, Taiko, Touro Synagogue